Seeker

Photo © Dawn Allynn

The sun stopped shining
in June
I don’t know
What I expected of you
In your world of cars
and music
and highs –
But it wasn’t what I found
In either one of us.
The sun stopped shining
in June
And I lost the summer’s
warmth
and love.
I turned to you
Your strength and smiles
to keep me from loneliness.
Better I had stayed alone.
You put me away in your closet.
You left me there with
The door shut.
And I am afraid of the dark.
Now I go from you
Into the winter storm
Hoping to find light again.

~1981

Slip Away

Photo © Dawn Allynn


When I was young
I laughed and played
Beneath the summer sun.
I didn't know
How time could fly –
I only knew of fun.
Somehow time
Slipped out of hand
While I was out at play,
And when I looked,
The child was gone,
She'd slowly slipped away.

I watched it slip away,
Like a wind through the trees.
I watched it slip away
Like a sailboat on the sea.
There was nothing I could do,
And nothing I could say…
I just held it while I could and then,
I watched it slip away.

So much of life
Has gone that way
I've learned to live the moment
For if I wish
For all that’s gone
I'll only live in torment.
Life is so short
It won't come back
So like a child I play
I live for nowI love for now
Then I watch it slip away.

I watch it slip away,
Like a wind through the trees.
I watch it slip away
Like a sailboat on the sea.
Well there's nothing I can do,
And nothing I can say…
I just hold it while I can, and then,
I watch it slip away.


~2002

Sad Sometimes

Photo © Dawn Allynn


Sad sometimes
Like the sound of rain.

I fear being alone

Not having friends to talk to…

Dreams
Only invade my realities,
Fantasies,
Only let me down.
Once in awhile I confide
in someone new

And usually find my secrets
Strewn about
Like leaves in the autumn wind.

Friends are much like
summer storms,
Arriving with little warning,
Departing once damage is done.

Simple smiles

Are often all I have left
To give the world.

-1981

Letting Go

Photo © Dawn Allynn


I guess I knew
somewhere
deep down inside my soul
fear chilling
silent pain
and when they called and said
those quiet
sorrowed
(never to be taken back)
Words
I could not even cry.

Grief and grieving

Numb
cold

Detached reality

How do I let the belief
of your loss
(ohgodnoohgodno)
be inside of me
when all I knew of you
must forever share the same place

and
live nowhere else?

-2002

I Am Just

Photo © Dawn Allynn

I am just

as perfect

as the sun

may shine

on the shadowy

surface

of gold

if you need me

just call

in a ring

around

a river

of inseparable beauty.

Dawn Allynn
~1983

Ode to my Sweet

When first I met my sweetheart
He always used to feed me,
But then I found too many pounds,
And now he doesn't need me.

Photo © Dawn Allynn